Two Faces on the Dice of Anxiety
It seems there is a common ground for these two psychological phenomena:
Shyness and Guilt.
In both of these mental/emotional occurrences, people experiencing them have a personal feedback which appears to have run out of control.
The importance we deemed ourselves to have is outsized, disproportionate.
A shy character is walking around the room, with his mind running wild, convinced everyone in his surrounding is staring at him, which of course, creates such an emotional rush, from shyness to phobia.
This is a projection of his self-image. He ends up believing everybody around is granting the same amount of interest he’s been experiencing in himself.
How can he re-calibrate his internal devices and update his personal software so as to reduce the distortion rate between what he perceives and what is?
Will he ever be able to blend this ability with the recognition this distortion rate can never be annihilated?
The guilty type, similarly, will overestimate his impact on others and the world. Getting mad at himself, regretting, chewing on what he might have done and the reasons why he acted that way, continuously re-playing potential scenarios that might have been…… is an inner mechanism allowing him to cope with his ‘superpowers’.
It is a twisted way to fit in, a vicious manner to deal with his alleged ability to mold the outer environment.
Will that person one day gain enough perspective to envision the complexity in the fabric of reality ? Will he mature enough to relax in an overview of Life Threads, of their ever-elusive entanglements ? Will he integrate the wonderfully powerless actor he is in the cosmic unfurling of events?
We might also wonder about the various external elements in our environments which contribute to feed the hungry beast of self-importance. When do we get caught in the webs of flattery ? How many times an hour ?
Are we aware of the infinity of shades flattery may have ? From the sleazy smile of a salesperson to the sickly grin of a paid-to-lure actress …from the ‘like’ fever on social networks to any other identity kit, sustaining the illusion of our eternity…
Shyness and guilt operate like two seemingly different expressions of a single inner state.
They are two faces on the dice of anxiety.
Franck Joseph – ©FJ April 2017
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